Missing A Few Things, and God’s Perfect Timing

I honestly miss regularly performing.  I’ve been singing in bands since I was fifteen.  So it’s no surprise that being able to regularly go up a stage and sing for a long time is something I do miss a lot.  The Lord has been faithful in opening doors and opportunities for me to do the things I love, that’s for sure, and I am thankful I have been able to sing for a few special shows and that I’m still actively writing.  What a blessing that one’s spirit can not be quieted when it comes to embracing the beauty of music and art.

But then again I find, as I go about my days, that God’s timing is always on the mark, always right on target.  In times when I truly, truly longed to quench my thirst for some creative endeavors, He blessed me early this year with the chance to join (and win a prize) in a national songwriting competition (Co-wrote a song called “Love Can Just Save The Day” with my kumpare and songwriting buddy Nino Regalado, one of Manila’s best drummers) called the 1st FILSCAP Songwriting Competition.  I was able to meet and learn from fellow musicians and composers (veterans in the industry and fresh-faced greenhorns both), and cherish the experience of sharing with others a song I co-wrote that was inspired by the birth of my daughter Drian.  I was able to do a few gigs early in the year, and do recording, something which I so love.

There are plans in the pipeline for some pretty good musical projects.  These things I’m still covering in prayer and speaking a blessing to.

I’m grateful to the Lord for continuously blessing me with people who trust in my writing…Also early this year, I was able to come up with a humble little website called PROUD TO BE A WIFE AND MAMA.  What a joy to find that so many have clicked “like” and leave me such overwhelmingly encouraging feedback.

My little family and I have been enjoying each other so much, and the privilege to be a constant witness to our daughter Drian’s growing up years is irreplaceable.

While I do miss a lot of things, I am made to realize a lot of wonderful revelations too.  It’s been difficult and challenging to embrace a lot of domestic responsibilities as a wife and a mother, truth be told.  But the moments squeezed into these days can not be replaced.  And I do not choose to replace them or be in any other place, but in the arms of my husband and daughter, patiently forming melodies in my mind, singing, and writing, and trusting in what the Lord has in store for me as an individual, a wife, a mother, an artist.

As I write this, my daughter is napping. I’d just gotten off the phone with my hardworking husband, who has told me over and over just how much he appreciates and loves me.  Wow.  I can’t take these gifts for granted.

The joys of being an important part of a family is something I can’t help but reflect on.  What happiness it brings to be married to the one you’re meant to be with.  It’s a relationship that we work on, and though we sometimes have differences like with any couple, it’s thankfully still a great source of passion, laughter, friendship, and love.

And motherhood.  This thing I like to call “chaotic bliss” is something that always makes me smile, always makes me feel glad to be alive.  Every achievement I’ve had in my life, big or small, pales in comparison to the immeasurable fulfillment being Drian’s Mama brings.

Time to wait on God’s clock, which ticks to perfect intervals, in time to the beating of His own heart and plans for my life.

I’ll patiently keep the faith and keep embracing where I’m at.  There is music in every moment.  I know I just have to take more time to listen.